I know that this story is a little bit long but I promise that its worth reading.
I want to tell you a little story about my life growing up. I am warning you it is a bit sad and touches on a lot of personal issues that I have had in my life. However, if you are struggling with depression, anxiety, stress or anything along these lines. This story will not only motivate you but really give you some insight on the calm after the storm. It all starts when I was much younger, about 14 years old to be exact. I was beginning my journey into high school and was actually pretty excited. At this point in my life everything was going pretty well, up until about halfway through my freshman year. I had some very tragic things happen in my life that changed my entire outlook.
To bring you up to speed on what my life was up before this. I was raised by my grandparents and lived with them pretty much my entire life. They were basically my parents and raised me like their very own. Halfway through my freshman year my grandfather passed away from cancer. It was by far the most tragic moment of my entire life. I do not want to dig too deep into this but lets just say I was incredibly devastated. I fell into a very deep depression and found myself in a very dark and depressing hole. I began using drugs, drinking and just plain hating life. Fast forward a year later and nothing had really changed. I was in my sophomore year, spent most of my time alone and depressed. This is about the time where I began to develop severe anxiety issues as well. If you are unaware of how anxiety is, the only thing I can tell you is that it is unbearable at times and can really control your life. My life was a complete mess and I was not sure if anything would ever change.
I eventually ended up dropping out of Highschool my senior year. I had very little friends and had trouble keeping the ones that I had. I had such a negative outlook on my life and I was not sure if anything was ever going to change. Anxiety was crippling at this point to where I was constantly in fear of having a panic attack. Luckily through all of this I had a very supporting grandmother who took amazing care of me. I can not imagine what she was going through all of these years. However if you have ever been severely depressed you would know that sometimes even the attention and love of a loved one can not lift your spirits.
Eventually I decided that I needed to get some professional help. I began taking medications for my depression and anxiety, which was a huge mistake. At first the medication worked great, it worked for almost a year actually. However eventually the medication would work less and less and I would have to take more and more to get the same effect. This is when I started looking for other methods to treating my depression and anxiety. I decided to do some searching online to see what I could find. After hours of searching I found a couple of natural remedies for my issues. yoga, breathing exercises, chamomile tea and a couple of other things were listed to help. However it seemed like the most useful tool for my problem was Meditation. Upon doing some searching I came across This Website. It was dedicated to teaching Meditation for stress relief, depression, anxiety and panic attacks. Little did I know that this was going to change my life forever. I ended up watching the entire video and reading through some of the information. I had nothing to lose and decided to go ahead and buy the product.
I bought it and ended up reading all of the books and listening to the Cd’s. It was very inspiring and taught me how to use meditation daily to reduce my feelings of anger, stress and overall depression. Meditation ended up becoming one of the most important things in my life. This was two years ago and I am no longer dealing with any depression or panic attacks. I still have slight anxiety but have learned how to control it better with yoga, meditation and breathing exercises. My life has improved more than I could have ever imagined and I have friends again that I actually enjoy being around and they enjoy being around me. I have an amazing girlfriend who supports me through everything.
The main reason why i wanted to create this post was because I wanted to share my experience in the hopes that it could help somebody out there as well. I would highly suggest learning meditation as it will change your life forever. If you want to learn it the correct and best way possible I suggest The Depth Factor. Remember that there is always going to be a light at the end of the tunnel as long as you put your foot forward and try new things. Remember that you are not alone in any of this and there is always time change.
Thank you for reading this I hope that you found my story interesting. I love you all <3